Sunday, January 25, 2009



I pulled out some of my clothes the other day, clothes I haven’t worn in five years. This is a vest I have in storage downstairs – this used to fit me – now I can’t even button it. I have decided this is my weight losing measure. I will try it on each week. I am losing 2 lbs a week, no great overnight changes. So I am beginning to think in percentages. I am 15% toward goal.

Maggie – secret diet weapon

This is Maggie, our new half dog. We are taking care of Maggie during the week while her owners live in NYC. Maggie is 2.5 years old. She watches everything I do, particularly if I go near the pantry. 
 
YoYo

The hardest time in a diet (besides getting started and besides staying on it) is when I get close to my goal – 5 – 10 pounds out – I look pretty good, and I just want my life of dieting to be done. I want to eat all the good (bad) stuff again. And it is so easy to gain it all back. I have lost this weight over and over, and it makes me wonder if this time it can be different. I am following all the cardinal rules of doing so – lose weight slowly, don’t go on a deprivation diet, etc. I think putting myself out here in cyberspace will help too.

Different taste buds

I remember once my friend, Elizabeth, and I were taking a coffee break from work in Portland. She bought a brownie and took two bites. She said it was too sweet to eat anymore. That has never happened to me in my life!

Is anyone happy overweight?

I have always been interested in whether anyone is truly happy being plump, chubby, fat -- totally comfortable
with his/her larger body size. I have never found anyone except for an actor, who specializes in fat roles. Here is Andy in the play, The Big Monty.  (And, I am not so sure that even he was comfortable, but had just found his niche.) Just when I think I find someone, he/she makes a comment or I spy a diet book on the shelf. There are some, women in particular, who look really good, no matter what weight. Part of it is that they dress so well. I dress terribly when I am overweight. I don’t want to invest a lot of money in good clothes when I think the extra poundage is temporary. So I hang onto my old clothes forever.

I actually did that with pregnancy, (it was a real temporary state) and wore the same dress over and over. My husband burned (in the days when we had burning barrels) it right after I gave birth. This time when I drop the weight, I am going to give my clothes immediately to Good Will. There will be no going back unless I am willing to buy a whole new wardrobe.


My breasts

One of the things that I hated most about gaining weight was that my breasts got so big. I had to get new bras, and it just seems like my whole front is covered by breasts. I can’t understand why women would want to have implants – every time you move you jiggle. I would love it if I didn’t have to wear a bra, and as you gain weight there are fat bulges that pop out under your armpits, where the bra pulls in.

2 comments:

  1. This is kind of a weird aside but there's the gay subculture of Bears which prizes big hairy men. Black leather and metal studs too, probably not your scene mom.
    Keep going though, it's inspirational!

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  2. And he got from dieting to gay bears with studs ...how? But Alec is right about the inspirational part. Sounds like you are doing great.

    My food diary shows I drink too much.

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